We are all beams of light and when we look directly at someone we light them up, we expose them. The dominant person who might be comfortable in shining their light will be lighting up someone who likely is not used to being seen in such a way and therefore might feel over-exposed, or uncomfortable in some way that they may not understand.
Through studying the chakras and singing in the Chakra Voice classes we become more conscious of our light body and through this our body’s energy field begins to appear brighter or more present to others, whether we mean to or not. We long to be seen and heard but the injuries exist within the relationships between us keep us from really connecting and being seen in a healthy manner. We have an opportunity in these classes to develop a tolerance for being seen and heard through singing and and expressing ourselves, and to not retreat back to our old patterns of hiding and being afraid of being seen, or the opposite reaction of pushing through this discomfort and denying our real feelings so we can appear confident and having it all together.
Those of us who are a dominant light need to be aware that those who are not so dominant will not enjoy this attention upon them at first. Those who do not enjoy this are not at all smaller or less aware somehow than the dominant person, only more sensitive to the light of someone’s attention for various reasons I shall touch upon here.
The classes are an opportunity to develop a subtle awareness of the relationships between us. Just as the voice reflects the whole inner life of someone, it also mirrors the relationships in front of us, the space that exists between us and the safety or lack thereof within that space. Our gaze is not unlike a flashlight or a spotlight. If we are aware of this sensitive dynamic in the relationship the the space between us will begin to feel safer.
Any spotlight being shone directly upon us lights us up and can expose us much too much, especially at first, we are ‘blinded by the light’, so to speak. So in class we can begin to consciously direct this light when we sing or witness someone singing, by standing beside them or at an angle so that the spotlight on each other is not over-exposing someone.
Some of us have been over-exposed in our lives through abuse or abandonment that could have felt suffocating or inundating. This creates an over focus on the child, an over-exposure of attention that might have felt unsafe and scary. Some have been under-exposed through abandonment which felt more like neglect and having distant, unavailable parents. This creates an under-exposure, with not enough focus on the needs of the child. And some of us have experienced both over-exposure and under-exposure of attention and focus.
Whichever focus you had growing up created injuries around any attention we may receive or not receive from others. Our use of our voice reflects this dynamic when we sing and when we are in relationship with others in the available space in our bodies or the lack of space. It reflects the need for attention, or, the need to get away from having that attention.
As the group becomes more aware of the subtitles in the class and we learn to honour the relationships that are present within the space, a stronger container of love can be developed and vulnerability can begin to arise. And from there the miracles of sound and light can really do their stuff!
VIBRATION + INTENTION = HEALING AND MANIFESTATION.