Finding Your Edge…

Finding Your Edge…Boundaries and the Singing Voice

Our voice is a reflection from our connection. What does this mean exactly? What connection? What am I reflecting? Our voices are telling on us all the time through our resonance, power and tone or lack thereof. You know what it’s like when you feel under-the-weather and your voice reflects this. When you feel vulnerable, maybe weak your voice reflects this. Is there something wrong with my voice? No. The voice just reflects the inner barometer of the internal weather system, it’s not personal. The voice, the Queen of the body acting for the needs and wants for the land, is just doing her job.

Then there is the hidden habit that we all have in how we are living our lives and throwing off our power to others. By undermining ourselves, by making ourselves small, by doing things for others that we don’t want to do etc. This is how we lose power, and of course our voice reflects this ‘habit’.

It is insidious and hidden and we don’t even know we are doing it, maybe the big painful sacrifices but not the subtle ones. It has become a way of life, to sacrifice ourselves for others to get the love we didn’t get.

It’s painful, old, manipulative, and needs to change don’t you think? Our voice is reflecting this lack of power and we think it’s our voices problem, no it’s not. We have a say on our choices and finding a new edge that is good for us and no-one else. This is brave and can seem heartless, but consider the alternative, how’s that going?

There comes a time when things need to change and get right side up again. Putting my needs and my desires first is right side up. It gives others permission to do the same. Your singing voice and your life will reflect this power, this permission in your bones. It will resonate with this permission and others will hear it. No you will not be alone. No you are not doing anything wrong.

There are soft edges and hard edges and everything in-between. Find your edge, it might be uncomfortable but you will reap the rewards of this new courage and feel more alive, more excited and you will be able to sing with conviction and power. It might be messy at first, oh well, don’t let the perfectionist tell you it’s gotta be perfect, it won’t be.

The singing voice needs a container for it to resonate inside of, not unlike a bell. Our bodies are our bell and the energetic space around us is the resonant space of the bell. When we lose our power we lose our place to resonate inside of, to reside inside. “The power of decision is my own”, from a Course in Miracles. Indeed. Find your edge, find your voice, what the heck.

The Voice is a Reflection…

The Voice is a Reflection of The Connection – by Anna Beaumont

‘There is only one shot that is in perfect harmony with the field’, says the actor in the movie, Bagger Vance, a movie about golfing and life.  What is the field? The field is the whole of consciousness and energy.  Our intent creates the field before us, however, the sentence above is suggesting there is only one shot that is in perfect harmony with the field.  hmm, interesting.

We can be aware of a feeling or a sensation, our thoughts, the sound of the voice and how your voice makes you feel inside.  I can be aware of the sounds in the room, the clock ticking, my feet on the floor, my beating heart.  All of these points of awareness make up the field.  The sound of the singing voice can be listened to from two different points of view.  One, subjectively, from the listeners opinions and judgments, secondly, objectively, just accepting it as it is as an experience of being there in time and space.

In order to understand objectively we need to know what it means to have a wide-angle lens of awareness, taking in information and widening our lens.  Wherever my attention goes my energy flows and my voice will reflect that connection or lack thereof.

“There is a perfect shot that is in alignment with the field, it takes focus to make that authentic shot, that one shot that’s yours. You have to see that place with your soul, don’t think about it, but feel it.”  Again from the movie, Bagger Vance.  It requires the focus of awareness for the flow of feeling energy to find the freedom of being in this part of your body.  This is the making of the authentic singing voice; a voice that is connected to the field of awareness that that person has available to him or her in any given moment.  This includes feeling sensations, emotions and vibration.

This development of awareness and presence will be reflected in the singing voice.  The more she is able to be in harmony with a larger field of awareness the more beautiful and full her voice will sound.  It will reflect the connection.  The awareness, the attention and the focus are all synonymous for the atmosphere and quality in which we are attend to ourselves and to the field.  I can be aware of my chest and breathe here but my awareness might be harsh and forceful.  I can also place the focus into my chest and intend an atmosphere of love and acceptance here.

“Focus and don’t see a dragon at the end that you need to slay but see with soft eyes see where the tides and the seasons and the turning of the earth all come together.””There is a perfect shot trying to find us.”  There is a perfect note that reflects this connection that is trying to find us.  It wants to know itself and it wants us to get out of our own way so that it can choose us to know itself.

The note or notes knows better than I.  We intend what we want, then work together with the field to create it.  We accept what is happening now inside of us and we bring this with us.  We don’t step around it, or sing over it, above it or below it, but, include it into our field of awareness, it is all from the same field of Oneness anyway.  A field for thought. Our task is to bring all of us into consciousness, so we can make beautiful music from our whole Being.

Be Still and Know…

The precision of the sound brings the stillness into being.  Like the threading of a needle we are asked to be extremely precise about where we are headed and where to place our attention. This knowing and confidence allows for stillness to be experienced. Again, it is from this space and place that we are able to see where we need and want to go.

Without this we are lost in the woods in the chaos of movement and energy adrift without a shore and no light house to guide us.The stillness gives us the opportunity to feel the depth of our being as well as our presence with all that is around us.  The movement has to pay attention to the authority of our stillness and meets its command to Be Still and Know.

The singing bones give us our anchor to our body to be still and feel the resonation in and through us.  We can then get in touch with the emotions that are present.  The singing bones can reflect the emotional energy and build a relationship with emotions and resonation.  Our emotions are a reflection from our connection.  When we receive our own vibration and resonance then others will hear and see us.  Using the focus of our minds we thread the sound through a precise portal outwards following through every note threading our sound out from our 3rd eye.

The tone reflects our emotional connection if we are being mindful and reflective.This intense threading of our essential being is two-fold. It sends our essence outwards as well as inwards and in doing so has the potential of bringing the stillness of the Present Moment.  It is an experience of the present moment that is a tangible felt experience.  It is as though this focused sound parts the seas between the worlds of spirit and earth and both are met in the moment.  We know at once where we are and who’s we are. Our spiritual essence, life force and breath combined with the earthly bones being resonated and penetrated.

The felt sense of this is one of joy, beauty and pleasure.It reminds us of what is true, real and sustainable in our lives.  It strikes and disturbs that which is not real and is of time; past or future.  In my experience of this our nervous systems are charged and become reminded that there is indeed a frontal lobe to add to the picture of our wholeness, not just our reptilian fight or flight experience of what we have accrued inside of habitual reactions.

This is not only important but crucial to the evolution of our species to allow singing and sound to become our true rightful passage to joy and love.In my experience of teaching over the years singing has been triggering our fight or flight for millennia and setting fire to our senses in a way that, depending upon each persons neurology can be very eroding for our nervous systems.

It is not the fault of our beautiful singing voices, but, the hiding from being seen and heard from ourselves and others that puts the lid on our free voice from knowing itself.  We need to light our senses on all cylinders, the cylinders that fire and fuel us into the now, not the then.  This is not only possible but inevitable in our growth as our use and awareness of sound grows and unfolds before our very eyes and ears.  I am humbled to my knees by this knowing.